Tipsy Topsy's Triumphs 'N Tears

Monday, November 29, 2004

To be or not to be

I had the opportunity of attending a couple of plays at the Prithvi Theatre Festival that was held in my city last week. It was an interesting experience. Something that led to a mixture of emotions: awe, amusement, bewilderment, boredom, constipation (ok..i couldn’t think of anything from c ..sorry).

The first evening had two short plays in Chattisgarhi. They were held at the epicenter of culture in my city. And the intellectual-looking crowd was out in full force. The kurta clad men, the kohl-eyed women- all that is so integral to such an evening. The setting for the festival was perfect. The exhibition on Habib Tanvir’s Naya Theatre group- its members over the years and the various plays they have performed. The amphitheatre decorated with orange lamps. Everything seemed to belong. In the midst of this sat Shashi Kapoor- looking very much at home.
The plays, however, were a different story. They were rural. Meant to be performed in the midst of much less opulence. Under the sun, probably. I am not suggesting that they were not appreciated. They were applauded wholeheartedly. It just seemed as if the setting demanded a play of a different kind, the play demanded a different setting.

The second evening again had the very beautiful orange lamps. The masks. The posters. The crowd. This time it was another venue. A place that is filled with memories for my parents of cultural events they attended when they were physically young (at heart they are younger than I am). A cultural hub of the past. It was a lawn and minus the elegant architecture of the previous venue, a much better setting for the play which was semi-urban. But being a lawn there was no elevation. Hence, except for the first ten rows, no one could see a thing!!!! A lot of people left during the interval.

Inappropriate plays and a callous choice of venue. If Prithvi Theatre is about enjoying the experience that watching theatre is to so many of us, then I am afraid its short visit to my city was a disappointment.

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Chaos

There is a voice screaming inside me. Questioning my actions. Asking me to stop. Change. But the mind is beyond my control. It comes up with the most believable explanations and kills all reason. I am falling. It is making me suffer. Yet there seems no way out.

Have always believed I know what I want to do in life. But suddenly I am not sure. All kinds of questions are cropping up. Is that what I really want to do? Am I good enough? Am I prepared for the sacrifices it entails? Do I have an option?

I have made new "friends". People who "care". People for whom I believe I "care". Do they? Do I ?

I hate looking in the mirror. I hate myself.

There is a baraat passing under my house's window right now. My feet are tapping. My head is bursting. I have tears in my eyes.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Kiddo

A week ago I was to attend an office party which required me to dress in shiny- shimmery clothes. Since none of the clothes in my wardrobe suited that description, I ventured into a relatively posh market to find some shiny-shimmery party clothes. And I did get something to wear. When I finally put it on and was looking in the mirror, the lady who owned the shop asks me "Aapke school mein function hai?" ??????!!!

Celebrated Diwali with my sister who has moved to a new city. Burst crackers with her neighbour who is about four years elder to me. She kept pushing me forward and giving me the first chance to do everything and saying "Pehle chote bache"

I am becoming retarded full speed. Someone help!


Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Strange Crazy Things...

A post on my river-rafting trip is due. Unfortunately it is still W-I-P, not because I am writing something excpetional (yeah yeah..i cannot) but simply because I have been too lazy to complete it. Just thought of scribbling some crazy things I have done in the past few days and those that have happened to me.

  • River-Rafting: Definitely crazy. Never thought I would be sitting on the edge of that rubber boat, rowing furiously with arms not used to much exercise while the waves around me kept tossing the boat around mercislessly and drenching me from head to toe. Too much fun! Spectacles with wipers just might make sense...
  • Jump off a 20 feet high cliff into the water with only a life jacket to protect me. I don't know swimming. CRAZYYY. It felt as if my heart was sinking inside me. But once I did it, the thrill was overwhelming
  • The first birthday greeting I get on my birthday be from a group of guys (colleagues) sitting around a bon-fire with the river flowing nearby and they singing "Happy Brirthday to you..", a mouth organ providing the background music. Have been in a girls school and college. Have never had guy friends. This was a different experience!
  • Meet my parents and sis on my birthday for the first time only at 11:30 in the night!
  • Suffer poor service at two restaurants consecutively!!! A half baked pizza at PH and late service at McDonalds coupled with yucky burgers (yuckier than they already are)
  • Hear my mom say "That was a great meal" when she comes out of PH (another visit, not the one described above). She usually has a great time but rarely enjoys the food there!
  • Not even an email from someone who claimed to care a lot till a month back! Wah re duniya!
  • Shop for more clothes when I already have almost ten untouched items of clothing already in my wardrobe and then pack them all away because the weather has changed
  • Go for three trips within a month. Yep! another one coming along...you guys have every right to be jealous :P
Also, Happy Birthday Shah Rukh!!! Mom (a die-hard, first-day-first-show fan) has been getting calls all day ..hehe. She plans to celebrate Diwali evening in a cinema hall watching Veer-Zaara. CRAZY