Tipsy Topsy's Triumphs 'N Tears

Monday, September 27, 2004

Happiness Within

A favourite quote of mine goes "It is difficult to find happiness within us, it is impossible to find it anywhere else"

Countless times we are told by wiser people and by books that happiness lies within us. That the material things of the world, the selfish relations, the “props” that we use for enjoyment..nothing can give us happiness. Life itself reminds us of this principle time and again.

We crave and cry for a particular thing and when we eventually get it, it doesn’t give us the joy we had envisaged. Yet, we again and again fix our sights on something or someone and say, “Only if that was mine, I would be happy!”

Why is it that even though we know this and somewhere agree with this principle, we still do not apply it in our life? The reason according to some wiser people is that we only know this, we do not truly understand this. An oft cited example is that of a glass of water that contains cyanide. If u know that the water is poisoned, you will not drink it because you understand it will kill you. But when it comes to happiness, we just know the principle and not truly understand it.

Life would be so much simpler if we were not chasing things or people. But the desire for them seems to be unconquerable. Then what is it that we can do? The wiser people say the solution lies in inculcating desires for something higher. If you cannot control your desire for junk food, inculcate a desire for health. If your desire for health becomes strong, the way most desires eventually do, your desire for junk food will automatically lose power.

Sigh! If only it was that simple ………


I got a lot of reminders that my post was overdue. The reason behind this being that I was doing night shifts during the week and my weekends were being spent attending Vedanta discourses with my mother (the effect of which is obvious above). Before any of you groan and symapathise with me, I would like to tell you that the lectures in themselves were very interesting. Infact I would recommend them to you also. You can find out about them here. Needless to say, this is not an advertisement of any kind, just something I enjoyed and thought some of you might want to check out. No yogas, breathing exercises or talk of strange auras surrounding you. Just plain logic told in a most interesting and relevant way.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

ROTFL

In case you have not read this amazing entry on Suhail's blog, I urge you to check it out and have the time of your life ..laughing!

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Walking...

Walking with the Lord, we are walking in the sunshine,
Lift up your hearts for you’re walking with God

- a hymn I used to song in school

A typical conversation:

X : What plans for the evening?
Me: Will be going for a walk.
X : That’s nice! With whom?
Me: Alone
X : ALONE????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It may not be surprising for some of you, but a lot of people find it very astonishing that I walk alone. Including those who see me walking alone.

An immature face on a tall body in crazy clothes. Lips constantly moving. Obviously talking to herself. Occasionally smiling. Often grinning. Walking ALONE.

Walking has been not only a way of exercising but also an outlet for me. A time in the day when I am alone with my thoughts. I have taken so many decisions, made so many plans, thought so many thoughts…..all on the same road I walk on regularly.

Seasons change. Flowers come and go. Kids grow up. Time moves on. While I walk along, a spectator talking to myself, singing and smiling.

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Troubled Relations

A friend read the previous post and asked what “Troubled Relations” was going to be about. I said, “about my relationship with my parents these days”. He said, “troubled?! But I thought you were very close to them!”

Precisely. Ours is a family where we are very close to each other. At times, suffocating-ly close.

Mom says I am very agitated these days. I always talk back. She blames it on my being on the Internet for too long. I am also for the first time being told: Don’t do this, Don’t go there.

I am confused. What do young people my age do? I am 20. Finished my graduation this year. Am working for a year before I start my post graduation which is not going to be an MBA. My colleagues spend weekends either preparing for CAT or hanging out at the malls, usually the latter. When I express desire to go for movies, shopping, etc. I am reminded that I am becoming too dependent on all this. I am told “Don’t do this. It is not good for you” I know this isn’t the best thing to do..Duh?! But what else do I do? Read books, listen to music, develop hobbies, work for charity…..Acceptable alternatives. But my heart doesn’t agree….It seems to run away from all this….

I am lost. I know what I am doing is not right. But no attractive alternative seems to be appearing. And in this confusion, I have ended up spoiling relations with my parents, specially my mom. The person I am closest to. The person who genuinely cares for me. Thanks mom for tolerating me. Hope I find my way soon…

Coming Up...

Things I am going to blog about....
  • Troubled Relations
  • Walking...
  • Happiness Within

None of them may sound exciting...but they are all things that are relevant to me today and ones which I need to vent my feelings about. Hope to have you come back to read more....


Thursday, September 09, 2004

Random Thoughts....


Mom’s spiritual Guru to her, " You know what your problem is? You have no problem!"
He went on to tell her how angelic her children are :-D. I love him!
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Went for a walk with a friend on Monday. She threatened to kill me the next time I jumped and yelled, "tomorrow is a holiday!"
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Ended up talking non-stop to a colleague I have never interacted with before. I guess clothes is something women can always talk about!
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The name of Coca Cola Company’s CEO is Douglas N. Daft !?!
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I have always seen those stuffed toys that carry messages like "I Love You", "I Miss You", etc and wondered why would someone waste precious money on something like this?! I bought two stuffed dolls. They say "Friends Forever". I bought them for the two girls who were closest to me throughout college. When I looked at the dolls I just knew I wanted to buy them for these two friends. I guess one just knows when one has to buy those silly things!
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I gave a gmail invite to a colleague for two Cadbury Temptations and an Asterix comic book. I have 6 more gmail invites with me. Any takers? :-D

Almost all my jottings ended with an exclamation! Oops, there I go again….

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Journey to a Destination

Excerpt from Notes to Myself by Hugh Prather

“Today I want to do things to be doing them, not to be doing something else. I don’t want to drive to get there, make love to have climaxes, or study to “keep abreast.”

I don’t want to do things to sell myself on myself. I don’t want to do nice things for people so that I will be “nice.” I don’t want to work to make money, I want to work to work.

Today I don’t want to live for, I want to live.”

A friend told me the other day that he worked towards a goal, achieved it and even before he could enjoy it he started his pursuit for the next goal. This same story is experienced by a lot of young people today. School, college, MBA, from one job to another- the journey is endless. The key, I guess, lies in enjoying the journey and not waiting to find the happiness in the goal.

Hope all of us are able to do that!